.:. Communication

Trying to express yourself--it's maybe the first struggle of a baby, something that parents spend considerable time fostering. My wife and I have taught our daughter a handful of signs to supplement her fledgling speaking capabilities and we seem to invest a lot of our energy in helping her communicate, teaching her appropriate communication, and trying to figure out what she's communicating to us. I don't think it stops. We never seem to "get it right" and so it seems that when we forget to focus on our communication we often hurt people.

I don't think that all communication was created equal, so here are a couple areas that I'm reflecting on:

Practical communication-- We communicate everything from our schedule to our moods-perhaps obsessively through things like Facebook and Twitter. Most of us probably need to express our expectations and needs a little more clearly. There's so much in the practical realm of things, but even these things seem to flow seemlessly into other kinds of communication... Like communication surrounding conflict. Yep, that one's a tough one. I remember a friend talking about "the Biblical model for dealing with conflict" we find that in Matthew 18:

15 ‘If another member of the church sins against you, go and point out the fault when the two of you are alone. If the member listens to you, you have regained that one. ¹⁶But if you are not listened to, take one or two others along with you, so that every word may be confirmed by the evidence of two or three witnesses. ¹⁷If the member refuses to listen to them, tell it to the church; and if the offender refuses to listen even to the church, let such a one be to you as a Gentile and a tax-collector. ¹⁸Truly I tell you, whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will be loosed in heaven. ¹⁹Again, truly I tell you, if two of you agree on earth about anything you ask, it will be done for you by my Father in heaven. ²⁰For where two or three are gathered in my name, I am there among them.’

Sometimes it seems to be the hardest thing in the world to go to someone directly and have a heart to heart about things that have happened. It's so easy to be pushed into a "defensive stance" or to jump right in to fighting back. And who likes conflict anyway? It's so easy to be afraid of that direct communication, but I don't think that's something we can allow ourselves to fear. The other place where I think we experience a longing for communication is in the expression of something deeper-we often love to be drawn into a beautiful story or song, so many people are writing blogs, giving lectures, scrawling the starts of poems on napkins, or wishing to be discovered by a record label so they can more fully express something in their soul. I think for people of faith, there are some natural outlets for that expression-in worship and through the arts. We enter the mysterious and try to capture pieces of it in song and liturgy.

There is so much beauty and struggle in our communication. We're always finding new ways to communicate. Take this blog for example-I don't feel the need to capture the full spectrum of what communication is or could be, but wanted to take a moment to encourage us all to reflect on what we communicate and how we do it.

Here's one more little scripture passage to chew on: The Apostle Peter wrote to the early church, "Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect" May the heart of that hope always be on the tip of our tongue.

.:. Thee Art Hovel List and "ing"

I'm quickly learning that time spent around small people who are just learning to talk is a good exercise in keeping the ol' noodle sharp. I remember all sorts of funny stories from editorials and pastors and blogs and...probably Garrison Keillor about kids saying something completely unexpected or thinking they had said something wild when they were simply speaking toddler. Getting together with friends from college the other night was part of the catalyst for my reflection here. The other piece of the puzzle for me has been with the worship band that I lead. We have such a deep pool of talented musicians. Vocalists, instrumentalists, leaders, students who are honing their skills in songwriting, fun things for the little extra "flare" like banjo, oboe, or harp...what DON'T we have?

I think that sometimes we don't have "the art of listening." I think that we have pounded through songs that we've done hundreds of times only to get to the end and listen for the first time only after that last big hit.

How is it that great musicians get to that point? I'm as guilty as anyone! How do I fall into that? To play music IS to listen. I know this! I've had hosts of amazing ensemble directors who have driven this through my skull since before I could say my R's. I think we need freedom and we need to see the bigger picture. We need to be able to get beyond the little note that I'm playing and hear all of the things that weave us together into some mysterious tapestry (sorry, but I'm serious).

When I teach one of my students how to play the blues, often one of the first things I tell them is to think of it like a conversation. You say something, you say it again for emphasis, you're asked for more details, so you reiterate what you just said, so you both expound and go do something cool. So if music is communication, no one wants to hear me blab all day (I know, I'll finish this blog soon). There's a natural rhythm of speaking and listening--how much more true when you're playing with other people! This is probably where I should share the old addage that God gave us 2 ears and 1 mouth...

so does anyone else out there have any thoughts? Or have I just talked too much yet again?

Design your own church...

What does it mean to be the Church?

I think a lot of people have pretty strong feelings about what a church should be. We have our pet peeves about our church or that church that we used to go to. So if you were going to start a church today, what would you do to “start it?”

If you’re at all like me, you might start by sitting back and wondering what is most important. You might think up principles that you’d employ and maybe you could spin those into a list of values or even a “mission statement.” You make it good and catchy, theologically sound, and clear enough that people can live it. Then none of these problems that you see with the church could squeak in. Next, you come up with a marketing strategy about how you’ll bring in other people and hope that some of the people you bring in have good gifts that you can use to expand what it is that you’re going for. “Maybe we have a weekly get together- maybe in the evening...maybe even a weeknight to be a little extra edgy. Wait, people are more flexible on the weekends. Saturday night. That’s good.” You think through what would be unique and exciting, authentic and creative. Then we give it a little dose of structure and as people start flocking to this thing, we get some more resources to funnel into it and build it up into something really big and cool.

How would Jesus build a church? How did he?

He got a group of people together who were willing to seek God. He taught them that, if nothing else, you’re supposed to love God with all that you are-with every thought, word, movement, and emotion because you’ve heard about how deep his love for you is. And that needs to lead to pushing down your desires to be great, to be served, to be in charge, to be the expert, and focus on other people. Those people started living differently. They related to people differently-to each other differently. People wanted to hear their story and came into their community and shared meals with them and learned to pray with them.

Could something like that still work today?

Then, as people start flocking to this thing, we'd get some more resources to funnel into it and build it up into something big and cool--then it can be really great. Then I can make sure my needs are met–I’ll be in charge. After all, I will be the expert-the one who created this thing...

Lord have mercy.

The Low Plains of Satisfaction

This morning, with choruses echoing in my head of Mick Jagger singing "I can't get no..." I took in my morning devotion (I know...a unique soundtrack to a devotion). The closing line from Oswald Chambers read, "If you have ever had a vision from God, you may try as you will to be satisfied on a lower level, but God will never allow it." I couldn't help but wonder at that statement. So often, I stand on the mountaintop, experiencing a renewed sense of seeing--new eyes and new passion. From here, I promptly go down and decide how these things should come to pass. I set my mind on the best path and whether it's God or other people telling me, "that may not be the best path" I endure. Wow, I'm so strong and smart....

Inevitably my plans (and even the prize at the end) are poorly conceived, flawed, confused. I may start making concessions, trying to satisfy my bruising ego, or making new goals and plans with a revived sense of resolve. If only I could stop. If only I could breathe. Just a moment. Allow myself to take the good, hard road and to be shaped for the greater purpose-the greater goal. To be content, simple, faithful.

Perhaps the most common words that have echoed through my head over the course of the last 6 months have been, "Deny yourself, take up your cross, and follow me." What a beautiful, deep, and difficult thing. If ever something was "relevant" to a culture where my life is "me."

Error...

The other day I threw a CD in my car that I had found in the youth room at church. I agreed to sort through the random hodgepodge of CDs (and even tapes) that were found as we were cleaning out. As I was putting this one in the CD player, I noticed the big bold lettering on the face of the CD that said, "The Sound of Awakening and Revival." Wow...this is going to be good! I waited as I started driving--waiting to be awakened and revived...

I kept waiting...


What's the deal? I looked at my CD player and it looked back sheepishly at me with five little block letters in it's eyes: ERROR. I figured there's some great irony there and I wondered if I could coax out a metaphor. I've had a little fun with a few. Got any of your own?

cs

Time, The Victorious

It seems like a long time since I've written a blog. Well, I guess it has by typical blogging standards. Since my last blog I have become a father, shifted job positions, visited 1 ER, hung the blinds in the bathroom, made (and eaten a lot of) my own salsa, lost my mind (AKA palm pilot) and I think I've attended 4 weddings and 3 funerals. Time does keep on marching, or harching as an old music teacher would say. Anywho, I just thought I'd give a brief update so I can clear my conscience and say I've blogged recently. And so you can know that I'm still around and excited about the future of my musical endeavors. I'm hoping to begin recording my sophomore album in the bleak midwinter. It will be a worship album. Hopefully much more on that later.

I think I'd be foolish, or "remiss" as they say, if I didn't mention how awe-inspiring it is to be a father. It has been completely remarkable to watch someone begin to be. My wife and I get to see all kinds of incredible firsts. Things that never worked before are beginning to. It's good food for thought as I realize that I, too am experiencing firsts in my life. I thought that from here on out I was looking forward to honing, clarifying, perfecting, and the eventual ceasing of all sorts of things, but realizing that each day continues to be full of amazing new things continues to inspire me. Unfortunately, it will be several years before you all start really hearing the fruits of those inspirations unless something really new happens with the financing of this career. Maybe I should look for sponsors. Okay, I guess that's what you are when you buy a CD or a song, right?

I guess I don't really have much more to say right now. I'll be sure to write again soon. Well, as soon as I have some extra time...


Richest Blessings,
cs

ps~this is why I normally try to think through things before I start typing. (not so this time around...surprising, you say? mm.)



.:. Reading Log

I will give a brief highlight of what I've been reading as I often try to. I am not really sure what all I've missed since the last time. If I think of any really great ones that I haven't mentioned, I'll try to pass them along. In addition to my ongoing readings, I have a bookmark in 4 different books. I was a little disgusted when I realized that in counting them up to tell you. On a positive note, I'm glad that I have some diversity in my reading. I'm in the middle of 1 novel (Son of a Witch, the sequel to Wicked), one religious book (Confronting the Controversies by Adam Hamilton), a western (yes, the same one I mentioned a couple posts ago), and a political book (Lies and the Lying Liars Who Tell Them: A Fair and Balanced Look at the Right). It's fun to take the buffet approach every once in a while. I'm finding more and more how much I appreciate the sort of "out there" pieces of fiction. Great stories can be so fulfilling, educating, and inspiring. I'd be excited to hear about your favorites.

.:. You Shall Bear A Child

Well, we're in the home stretch. For those of you that didn't know, my wife is "with child" and at this point it could come any day! All of this continues to be quite remarkable, exciting, and just a bit unbelievable. Awaiting that child is such an interesting process. When we first had that conversation (the "I think I'm pregnant" one), I reacted in a much different way than even I expected. I was in complete disbelief (peppered with doubt and skepticism). How can this be? Granted, I shouldn't have been as surprised as the blessed virgin who spit out those same words to Gabriel...but I couldn't believe it!

So this time has become a reflection on Advent. Well, Advent and other things... It's just that throughout the scriptures we see all sorts of things regarding the waiting game for the Child. Not just Jesus, either. There are other pregnancy passages, but obviously the one who was prophesied about for generations is our focus.

The waiting might be the most interesting part for me. After It became a bit more clear that Erin was, in fact, pregnant I began to get excited. Ready? No chance, but excitement was building. Then a few weeks ago she had some pre-term contractions...it was enough to make us realize that this baby was not necessarily on the schedule we were working with--it could come any time! Ever since that, I feel like I've been longing for this baby. It's time... It felt like the pregnancy signaled us entering into a new season--we were due for it. But now it feels like there was some weird epilogue to the last chapter or maybe a forward to a new one. Maybe it's just a new book in the series. Metaphors aside, we continue to wait in eager anticipation--not knowing who this will be, eager to pour ourselves into him or her (a surprise). Knowing that that person will be a blessing to us and to many others.

.:. Reading Log

My Boys Can Swim by Ian Davis

It's only fitting to mention the book that my wife gave me to try to understand what being pregnant is all about. I must admit that I tore through this tiny little book as my in-flight reading on a couple flights. It took me a couple seconds to figure out the title (and what was on the cover). There are definitely some pieces that could offend, but some good insights, some funny prose, and some information that I was completely unaware of...some words that still make me cringe.